Loyalty makes you want to keep trying to love a person even though you know it’s not meant to be. It will have you holding up your end of the bargain and ultimately carrying the full force of the weight alone. The weight will become too much for you to bear physically but your mental will sustain you just a little longer. Your desire to make up for their slack will provide adrenaline that will perceived as a stronger commitment on your part than it really is. The love will begin to run out but the idea of your allegiance to the person will remain steadfast. You believe that if you just hold on, they will come around but by the time they do…..you will be crushed by the weight. The impact will be so strong that others won’t recognize you.
Why do we let our commitment to others overshadow any that we have to ourselves in a situation like I mentioned above? Is it because we don’t want to be viewed as selfish? Is it because we don’t love ourselves enough to be placed first on our list? Is it because we are relying on someone else to supply us with love? A key component of love is loyalty. Without it, there is no trust. Think of love and loyalty as the bread and trust as the meat (or meat substitute if you’re Vegetarian). I don’t know about y’all but I need something in between my bread. The trust is the protein. It is the thing that makes you reach for the bread in the first place. Knowing that LT&L must be reciprocated will keep you from bench pressing unnecessary weight alone. It is important to understand this in relationships that leave more room for “I’m sorry” than they do for anything else. It is impossible to love enough for two people or will a person to treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I’m really not sure which came first but what i’ve learned is that they both must exist at the same time and be aligned with something much more powerful than the two put together.
Thinking out loud. Thanks for reading.